‘Detransitioner’ tells all in horrifying account of what ‘gender affirmation’ really means

By Jonathon Van Maren

stunning new set of polling data indicates that rates of teens identifying as transgender continue to trend sharply upwards. This is happening just as we are beginning to get a clearer picture of what it means when teens and children opt for the life-long medicalization of transition (or what trans activists, in a brilliant gaslighting manoeuvre, call “gender affirmation.”)   

That “gender affirmation” is being increasingly exposed, by those who have undergone the battery of hormones and surgeries that it entails, as a horrifying life sentence. One story was recent posted to Twitter by a young man using the name “TullipR.” It has gone viral since being retweeted by J.K. Rowling, and I would like to quote it in full—I’ve retained the grammar errors and am rendering his testimony as he wrote it:  

I want to tell everyone what they took from us, what irreversible really means, and what that reality looks like for us. No one told me any of what I’m going to tell you now.

I have no sensation in my crotch region at all. You could stab me with a knife and I wouldn’t know. The entire area is numb, like it’s shell shocked and unable to comprehend what happened, even 4 years on. I tore a sutra 4 days post recovery, they promised to address it, i begged them in emails to fix it, they scorned me instead. Years later, I have what looks like a chunk of missing flesh next to my neo-vagina, it literally looks like someone hacked at me. They still wont fix it. 

No one told me that the base area of your penis is left, it can’t be removed – meaning you’re left with a literal stump inside that twitches. When you take Testosterone and your libido returns, you wake up with morning wood, without the tree. I wish this was a joke. And if you do take testosterone after being post op, you run the risk of internal hair in the neo-vagina. Imagine dealing with internal hair growth after everything? What a choice… be healthy on Testosterone and a freak, or remain a sexless eunuch.

And thats something that will never come back and one of the reason why i got surgery. My sex drive died about 6 months on HRT and at the time I was glad to be rid of it, but now 10 years later, Im realising what im missing out on and what I won’t get back. Because even if i had a sex drive, my neo vagina is so narrow and small, i wouldn’t even be able to have sex if i wanted too. And when I do use a small dilator, I have random pockets of sensation that only seem to pick up pain, rather than pleasure.

Any pleasure I do get comes from the Prostate that was moved forward and wrapped in glands from the penis, meaning anal sex isnt possible and can risk further damage. Then theres the dreams. I dream often, that I have both sets of genitals, in the dream I’m distressed I have both, why both I think? I tell myself to wake up because I know its just a dream. And I awaken into a living nightmare.


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